So I’m sitting here, in an apartment, all alone, listening to my iPod, and thinking… “I’m not good at songwriting, I can’t give a darn about anything on the internet except looking for e-mails and occasionally seeing a funny video on youtube. It’s a Saturday and I’m bored.”

And thus the random online blurbs about my super exciting life continues in a journey to perplex, a ride to confuse, and essentially an endeavor to entertain while my boredom exceeds the suggested dosage and leaves me melting on the floor.

Oh right. School has begun, and it has been one week… just a little bit of info that I forgot to mention.

It’s kind of a strange period of time when I’m super excited (haha) and then again feel a mixture of remorse (why did I decide to go back to school when I could be earning money?), and meh-ness, whatever that means. Basically, I’m saying “hello world” then laughing at myself for being here all by my lonesome. At least God has a sense of humor when I wanted so badly to move out of my brother’s house. “That’s what you get, peabrain…” thanks God, I get the message.

I don’t want to talk about school right now… actually I don’t even know what to talk about. I just feel like typing and proving my existence. So far I’m satisfied.

I might have to explain my absence from this blog; I haven’t been on here for over a year, and now I finally feel like I might be able to have something to say. What was I going to say? Oh yeah, “I’ve got nothing important to do.” Considering it’s 9:30 at night, that’s a good thing.

But stupidity and randomness aside, I want to have a point in writing. Let’s see… I’m in college, I’m interested in medicine, and the study of molecular biology is beginning to get me really excited about the world I live in. This is no random thing. What’s random is my reluctance to take myself seriously.

So, all right, here’s the scoop. It’s been a while, and if anyone was ever really following my crazy train of thought, it’s good to see you again.

This past week has been kind of weird for me. I’m at a community college, and it’s my last semester before I transfer to UCSD. That’s probably where all this strangeness is coming from. That said, I am so looking forward to getting into the University environment and start interacting with different people. Furthermore, I am looking forward to expanding my knowledge, and positively influence people around me with my awesomeness. Of course I’m kidding about that last comment.

Being my over-achieving self, I have been memorizing amino acids. I’ve memorized eight. I don’t want to list what I’ve memorized because I would look like a nerd, and I promise you that I do not want to be a nerd. I highly doubt, however, that memorizing amino acids’ molecular structures will get me into medical school.

Speaking of medical school, I have been looking for something to occupy my time during the long three month summer between my last semester at my community college and my first quarter at UCSD. I hope to get into a program called the University Link Medical Science Program. It’s a one month live in program where we get a boot camp introduction into the discipline of health professions. I applied last year, but I was rejected due to poor preparation. I guess one semester of classes and nothing else didn’t cut it. So, 120 hours of physician shadowing and 200 hours of volunteering and 40 college credits later, I’m ready to tell them that I am worthy of a place in the program.

The only thing to crank out now is an essay that tells them that I can think and I am a cool person. Should be easy, but it’s so hard. Many of my friends will testify that I think too much. Seriously, I think so much about what I’m going to say that I end up convincing myself that what I am about to type out is so ridiculously stupid that I never write it out.

You know what? Now that I have something to write about, I’m going to get out of this stupid stream of consciousness and start a new post.

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